Saying Goodbye

As I prepare to leave the goodbyes must begin. Leaving Raleigh Sunday night came as a change in my original plans to leave Monday night. The weekend that began rather enjoyable became very emotional and overwhelming quickly. I realized that for what felt like the first time in months or even since before leaving for Italy, I was afraid. I was filled with doubt for what is to come and upon realizing how soon I would be away from all that felt familiar I was getting nervous.
What I realized amidst this series of emotions was that I can't be so nervous and worried about leaving if I want to have a full experience abroad. These emotions come with new things, but I wanted to be more at peace so that I could leave less afraid. I was asked why afraid by a friend. Perhaps that is my response because I want things to be perfect. I want this experience to be everything that I have thought it would be for the past 2 years. What I have to find comfort in is God's plan for me while I am there. I have a feeling that it's going to be more incredible than any preconceived ideas I can create for my experience. The goodbyes intertwined with the desire for peace were perhaps what pushed my emotions over the edge throughout the weekend, making me so overwhelmed. Either way all of those feeling have brought be here now and fearless or not I am leaving in just a matter of days!