The Process

When you are traveling you are on an adventure.  Even when you don’t want to admit it you are on a quest, a search for something deeper.  You may be looking for answers, or purpose, or more meaning to your life.  Perhaps you are just looking to escape.  I have felt that pressure--of what it's like to be a traveler since getting back to Italy.  Is it that I am still trying to figure out my desires for returning or because as a "traveler" I feel pressure to be on a deeper search?

 

I left college more certain of my purpose than I am as I sit here two years later.  More experiences have developed, more interests.  Instead of feeling a "calling" to one I begin to wonder if I'll just pick what sounds okay.  No, that can't be the right way though. 

I listened to a sermon yesterday and it was a reminder of that everything we do has meaning and we have to understand this thing called life is a process from "bring anointed to being appointed."  We are an instant gratification society these days, and my generation is especially eager and impatient.  This process was discussed as the point where we accept God's love leading to prayer, and our search for that purpose. 

When I get fearful of the unknown, all I am truly doing is missing today. My hope here is to accept the silence and listen to it, to soak it in.  So, be still, seek purpose, and understand the journey is often even more important than whatever the destination is.

"...And in the meantime, this side of Paradise, it is our business (not like so many peddlers of God's word, but as men and women of sincerity) to speak with our hearts (which is what sincerity means) and to bear witness to, and live out of, and live toward, and live by, the true word of his holy story as it seeks to stammer itself forth through the holy stories of us all." -Frederick Buechner